And now, I won't see her ever again. And besides not knowing how to feel and what I should be doing, its been ok, I think. I had a 5 min cry to my best friend Ali on the phone just after I found out and then have remained dry as a whistle ever since. There is something wrong with me.
I feel numb and cold.
I could use a hug right now but I don't want anyone near me and I keep pushing those who try to show they care away.
I am just so cold.